its...dusk....
...the sky is crimson red....
the sun..sets at one end.....and here....a new feeling dawns..on me...
i dont know what..just something...some inner voice that tries to resurface itself...
i dont know..what...!
am i sad....??
but what is it that i have to be sad for..?
what is that im not able to comprehend??
..i sit patiently....trying to recollect and decifer my own feelings...
the voice inside me grows louder....
its the very first time..i find myself..so calm..so quite..so serene..so thoughtful..
am i losing myself..huh...
neah..its just nothing..nothing to be worried about at all....
but still..im anxiuos.....
why is it..i feel so lonely today??
why is it....i enjoy my solitude..like never before...
why is..unlike other days...i dont wanna..turn on..that hiphop muzic...dance to myself...or rather... start yearning for a happening crowd around me...??
and then..i felt myself..my inner me..for the first time....
no matter..how..jumpy...how....crazy..im..there lies..this little..little girl..!
still building her dreams...still....looking upto the sky...still with the hope..that it is not beyond her reach...
this inner me....calm..quite..and subdued....by my outer personality...
well....this is me..my second..me..deep inside..deep..within....!!
3 comments:
The first word tht comes to my mind after reading the piece is.. hmmmmm...
There is always a conflict between what one is inside and what one is to the outside world.One who realises the difference is the one who is best to judge the best for him/her.Everyone needs some time for oneself, to realise the dreams tht lie deep within trying to surface but are afraid to be uncovered to the outside world. Thats the way it goes.. that's life !!
You write well, I can say that even if I dont consider myself a judge of any kind.
the inner voice is always strangled and subdued.
but believe what the inner voice says.
confusion is just another exemplification of the fact that the
outer personality tries to put a blanket on inner self...
the inner and outer self synchronizes with experiences and self actualization....
ur writngs re good and soothing
keep it on>>>>
deep inside lies that divine feeling of beng oneself...its just that, one has to differentiate between the outer and innner personality...very few ppl are able to comprehend that actually..the typical "dil aur dimag" types feeling..
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