Me !

Some say I am insane,
Some say I am a crazy being.

Some say I am a child’s soul,
Others say I play a perfect woman’s role

Some say I am reckless like the wind,
Still few praise my responsible mind.

Many say I talk too much,
Still few know why I am such !

Some say I cheerfully chatter.
Some think I uselessly blabber

Some say I am just another face in the crowd,
Still some say, I make them proud.

I say, I am so many in one
I am both, shades of grey and colors of fun

I am the wind, that u may never catch
Still I am the sky u can always watch

I can utter razor edged words to hurt a few
And yet be the comforting balm to sooth you

I can be the open book for all to read,
Or be as secretive as the kernel’s seed.

For you, Im what you see me like
Perception is all that matters right

However if you ask me ‘about me’
I can only say
“ LOVE me or HATE me
But u simply cannot IGNORE me” !

The recession hit !

With the great recession creeping in, without any pre-warning( or may be we were overoptimistic to overlook the indications), i feel my blogs will have to touch the same topic.
Being an engineering graduate myself, n not completely oblivious of news like global slowdown and subsequent cost cutting and lay-off, i too have stopped dreaming about an approaching life of luxury n quick bucks and started living in constrained thoughts.
Right now i m just done with my B.Tech and like thousands others, i too am placed and awaiting a concrete joining date, though the firm which has recruited me takes care to send me periodic mails to assure that though a bit late, it would stand by its words n would employ us.
Thoughts in my mind right now:
what if conditions are worse than this?
what if the company is indeed loyal to us but has to save it own skin before anything else?
what if the company doesnt take us?
what if it does.. n after a few days.. follows the well known lay-off on the pretext that we weren't good enough?

I do panic.. much alike others.
But deep down, i have a thought.
what crippled me so far.. that me who was looking forward to a really lavish lifestyle ahead, now hardly dares to dream.
Me, who some days back.. seemed so confident and self sufficient now even has to think of remaining safely in a job.. yuuk .. i hate mahself for the same!!!
Is it like companies who made really great offers for graduates have actually made them more complacent about life?
Is it like.. with all the success stories around ( much to the credit of business boom and less to the credit of merit) i had indeed taken my life for granted?
Wasnt it necessary for me to intro-spect?
Wasnt it necessary to think.. what if such a situation arose( even virtually)?
Wasnt it necessary for me to plan my life?

am i going to move on with the herd..??
Doing what others did, succeeding when everyone does n panicking when others do?
Arnt i really going to move out of this n THINK N ACT !!
the answer still haunts me !!

Another fine 'class'

The hour drags by,
reluctant to proceed.
The loud murmur of the teacher
falling on my deaf ears.
My copy lies opened,
a word or two scribbled with lot of efforts
They look at me,mock at me
sometimes even scorn me!
This is the last year of the legendary engineering studies
I still struggle to exhaust one single notebook
bought enthusiastically at the start of the second year!
My thoughts have possessed me,
I'm in my own world
A continuous reel of plans,schedules and pending work!
I look at my sides,
drowsy eyes,yawning faces and impatient souls
all packed in this dungeon of classroom.
They do lessen my guilt..
The desks lay dumb
all scrawly and scribbly with names and love proclamations
of the notorious spirits.
The front row looks deserted
a pupil or two,who have vouched to be declared sincere
The enlightened ones occupy the safe last benches
utilising the time resources for fruitful jobs
of crosswords,newspapers,bingo and sudoku.
A few graceful souls have buried themselves
into the screens of their mobile phones.
either sending sweet messages
or rereading old and loved ones.
There is still a group of better people
who have learnt to make up for their lost sleep
because of the previous night out
quietly burying their faces into folded hands.
Still not left too far behind,
a single spirit connects the whole classroom
the spirit of missed calls!
buzzing with a low vibration
sometimes at the back and yet next in the front
to carry on the chain reaction
I look around,fifty five minutes gone.
all buck up now
some students having enthused themselves
to shout "too much for a day sir already..next class sir..blah blah"
the teacher gives a look at his watch
and as the busy souls make their way out
he does not forget his template statement
"any doubts please come to my room"
DOUBTS.!
Another class passes,
and we console ourselves
just a few more to go.

Year 2008, a learning experience

The year 2008 has been a bag of mixed emotions.A girl right into her early years of the state of mind called 'womanhood', it felt as if every major and minor event taking place in and around me seemed to wrap me around with a new and fresh outlook towards life.
Earlier this year, days seemed more casual, calm and running in its own course. Each day was a new learning experience. Older ties remained intact and fresh ones added the much needed spice in life. Things here and there were simple add-ons to my daily cup of coffee. There was nothing like the joy of learning, absorbing fresh ideas, modifying and redefining older views and feeling the greatness and freshness of maturing at every level. The major achievement was penetrating deeper into human brains, understanding different individual thinking processes, the like and kind, and seriously nothing feels better than the feeling that 'you understand better'.
Then came an era of blasts, literal and serious ones, here and there. Someday in Jaipur, Hyderabad, the other day Bangalore, a series in Ahmedabad and Surat and still a couple more in connaught place etc in Delhi.
Life seemed insecure, at serious threat. Everyday saw more and more people terrorised, panic stricken and traumatised.
What followed next was a global gloom.Wall street crash! Lehman Brothers bankrupt! just to spread the message 'nothing can be taken for granted'. Stock prices came down, rather rushed down. People committed suicides in utter despair. The once unstoppable growth took a U turn in global front. Markets for jobs came down,only to demoralise and disappoint fresh graduates. Words like 'bears', 'cost cutting', and 'bankruptcy' were ones even infants were aware of.
Running almost parallel was an era of religious outbreak, blasphemy and still more groups of religious extremists. The country looked more divided. The essence of unity and being 'secular'( a word described by the dictionary as not connected/related to any religion)seemed to have lost its colour. Life seemed actually at threat. Religion was not meant to pacify oneself but remained to be another error of the divisive society.
Excitement and curiosity also came to play as one witnessed the neck to neck competition between the Democrats and
Republicans in US. The world finally stood up to celebrate the first African-American president with the 'Obama factor' having played it part.
The people had not even recovered from the wake of terrorism in different old and new forms,that a fresh round of terrorist attacks in Mumbai took its hold. Never before had people experienced such an open threat to life from foreign agents. It ended finally but with effects such as the number of post-traumatic disorder cases rising sharply throughout the city.
This year now comes to a close, an experience of learning, caution, and trauma all blended into one. Yet, I still look forward to a fresh year, for fresh ideas with a 'hope' that has kept me going till date.

                                                             A strange yet natural feeling.

This night is so calm,so unusually calm,

I can hear every second of the clock ticking by,

 the low buzz of the long abandoned polythene

playing all by itself in the gentle breeze.

I can feel the rustle of the air blowing through my hair,

the silence of the night which makes it still more serene.

I can sense the gentleness of the leaves shining in the silvery moon,

and the coziness of the soft nest in which the sparrows share their room.

The feathery clouds fly by in pace 

and the moon looks down upon me with its gaze.

I can feel my soul in unison with all of them

speaking with each of them without any verbal word.

It indeed is true,the universe conspires,extends its soft innocuous words

you just need to lend an ear,feel the life in every bit of creation

and there you are completely bonded to the nature able to connect yourself with it

and feel yourself a human 'naturally'.

HAPPY WOMAN'S DAY..!

This is woman's day, and being one myself i should customarily start off with the statement "happy woman's day" to boost up the morale and confidence of all the members of the fairer community.
So one of 365 days are people by some means forced to look up to this gender,verbally speak some words of appreciation for them and may be pamper them with flowers and chocolates if they can afford a bit of exaggeration.
It just occured to me that by just dedicating a single day in honour of this gender can the society compensate for the innumerable number of days women have to go through all the hardships in their lives?
Day in day out despite having set all kinds of reservations,special priviledges for women they are socially still not at par with the other gender.
I would acknowledge that being a woman is not all that easy.If u speak your voice you are termed 'oversmart', if you fight for your rights,you are 'too demanding' and if you knock the doors of justice you could be termed 'too bold' and or even 'shameless and unethical'.
A woman's overt speech can be a matter of still more public speculation,criticism and abuse.
It is not as if people do not care..they do,but not in a way of empowerment but in a fashion 'overprotection' .
If she has has not been given the right education,we create reservations and quotas.If she is continually subjected to rape and sexual harassment,we create separate compartments in trains and if she has been offended,disgraced and devalued,at the best "sympathized".
The answer to this does not lie in pitying,sympathizing or showing bereavment.
Its all about changing our attitude towards them,stop thinking that they are "one of the several errors of the society"and realising that giving extra protection only dooms them into the concept of "weaker sex".It requires giving them the right respect and status she deserves.
after all a woman is also another 'human'..she has the right to think and walk free,imagine herself flying high without the strings of various constraints holding her back.
In short she has a right to 'live her life'.

So, today this is a personal message for all of us to stop stocking all our respect,love and regards for just this single day and rather grant her respectful,fearless and mirthful days all through her life.

Is it a joke??

     Have you ever felt like there is nothing more amusing than to play a good joke on someone,to force them to
 laugh  at their 
 own foolishness and if they get angry to punish them by playing a new joke on them..
    well coming to to "joke" the most commonly used expression for statements we find 
amusing and laughable.In our daily life we do love to find time for some inoffensive and laughable stuff to refreshen and lighten our
mood..So infact jokes are like the  lighter part of our lives.But let us give it another shot of our thought.
     Joking may seem like just another sport for passtime,but it is another aspect of our
 intelligent minds 
 that finds it way through our mouths..An articulate joke is not just another amusing stuff..
It is a careful 
innovation of the brain a statement worth appraisal and applause.
     A good sense  of humour is something always sought in a companion..and thus a humorous person easily becomes the life of any
 party..Its the tingling effect 
   of words and actions that can leave on literally..rolling on the floor...
  It has been rightly said that a person who can spread a smile can win millions of hearts..but
i would rather suggest..one who can..make others laugh can make it to billions.!.It may seem
the most easy task at hand..but..so much so..there can be nothing more satisfactory to brighten up somebody's mood..and that matters after all..!!
     so...common spread that laughter...drive others to rock and roll..
 and beware....these words of mine are no joke..!